well, doesn't it all just figure. if you've been reading some of my previous posts, you know that i found a church while i was in winnipeg that i felt truly at home in. this place was the real deal. it's crazy that it took me 32 years to find my home, but i found it.
so, anyway, i've now moved far away from winnipeg and i'm back at square one. i'm looking for that kind of place. i don't imagine it would have to be exactly the same. it would be great if it was similar, but i don't think it has to be. it's just...back to work.
i guess what i find most difficult is "where to begin...". at the very least, i think i definitely know i'm anglican. i really love a lot of the liturgy, particularly in the book of alternative services. but the politics are different here. it's actually easy to think there were no politics at my previous church. i do believe that, but it wouldn't surprise me if i found out that it had some. it's hard to get away from politics when people are involved. but out here...once you dig deep enough, it's a bit of a pressure cooker. there is one particular issue that drives it and unfortunately it's an issue that too many people have an opinion on (especially me).
so i'm back to searching. i think there may be a place i could settle for a little while, but it's hard to tell right now. either way i don't know that it will be home. probably not even home away from home.
i have to think that God knew i would be moving before i found the last place. so there will always be the question of why He would let me find it so late or why i wouldn't get a stronger urge to go there sooner. but it's typical to think that way. really, i knew about the place and was too lazy to check it out sooner. i have myself to blame but i still ask why.
so, here i am. looking. it's still very early in the process. it's not a process that i like that much, and i definitely don't know the first thing about doing it right. i can only hope that if something that special comes up again, or is in my peripheral vision, that i'll have the stones to check it out as early as possible next time and give myself enough time to stay for a while longer.